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NOTES ABOUT THE
AUTHOR
He won Risto Ratković prize for young poets (Montenegro 2005.), for his book I MAY BE SLEEPING. His poems were translated in Polish and published in Fragile magazine (Krakow, 2009.), as well as in e-edition of the magazine. In 2012. his poems were published in International online magazine OMEN, (issue #10). The interview with the author can be read on www.bridgestoserbia.com.
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Translated from the Serbian by Novica Petrović |
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on
the night between April 27th and 28th 2001
2.00 Breadcrumbs
Jump
like grasshoppers Before
the rain And
my goblet spills over Onto
the table Which
has stood firmly for years Bearing
the burden of food of generations. 2.07 All
about the house I leave a trace Of
poor-quality paper Whose
words Have
stuck to my fingers. Now
you can follow the trace Of
words, String
sentences together. 2.15 Entire
districts are evacuated On
account of talk, The
lunatic asylum van’s horn blares. They
beg me to come out When
I explain to them that nothing is 100%
certain. Tired,
I go to sleep, Setting
the alarm clock to ring In
two hours on the dot, I get up, Get
dressed, In
the paper I read That
they are on the trail of the elixir of youth. 2.25 “Everything
must come
to an end.”
Serbian proverb Communism
collapsed Like
badly played notes. Nobody
had a musical ear And
out of love for his/her own voice
Everyone
wanted to silence The
others. 2.30 I
am no longer 5 years old Or
10 Or
15. Mozart
began at the age of 5 As
did Martina Hingis. For
my fifth birthday I got An
accordion. When
I learned the multiplication table I
got a hunting knife With
which I slaughtered the accordion later. Much
later, I played To
those younger than me That
the multiplication table Is
the basis of multiplication. 2.39 I
chased people away with garlic I
was powerless before witches. They
came During
my rests And
took over my preoccupations. They
walked away with vampires Anaemic
fools. 2.46 I
secure awakenings By
jumping off buildings. I
never keep a wire net on the window Mosquitoes,
too, are living creatures
They, too, fall for blood. |
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To Đođo, Assuming That our rabbit lives Crossed once. A finger’s breadth wide, a draft blows. That
day When
I picked a grey rabbit To
be my pet And
then returned it And
took a yellow one instead, Did
I save one, Dragging
it by the ears, And
push the other one, Betrayed, To
its fate? Did
Grandfather, Breaking
its neck With
a knife handle, Know That
the stew Wouldn’t
have the time To
get cold in his belly That
he wouldn’t wear for long The
coat made from the fur Of
the rabbit Still
jumping all over the fridge? Only
I noticed Even
though I was small That
our neighbour Hid
her gaze under her skirt After browsing grass She
took her grandson his lunch And
pulled her ears When
he looked at her with someone’s eyes. To that boy Whom I resemble somewhat She
said, the one who fled afterwards And
whose paws served for pounding When
she was frightened – you’re a real rabbit Which
made his ears turn red And her teeth go bad. Her
daughter fled that night 20
years before her birth to
join Bunnies. Under
the same roof, my grandfather’s, Where
I decided the fate of rabbits Where
the skin in the attic was dry And
prepared to take in those Who
stamped their feet when they were Frightened. |
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Our
neighbour Vesna reminiscing about the
ceremonial ending of our childhood. And
it all happened so normally a
girl came took
a boy away in
a blue car not
saying good-bye for the first time they
drove away. Rain
started falling and
washed traces of chalk from the street (the
pigeons did not make the time) pieces
of the puzzle were being fit together. The
ball was thrown into a yard to cool down, where
it accidentally found a rose thorn. I
was sitting on the terrace had
I fallen off it I
wouldn’t have seen any of this. I
dangled my legs then
entered the house through
the big door without taking off my shoes. |
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An
empty space Walked
upon By
those whom I loved. Clouds
scatter across puddles Big
houses with safe dreams. A
truck trailer Flight
for young wasps. Naked
trunks... Small
hairs on the cracked tongue of the desert. A
safe phone number Nothing
will happen on it. Experiments... The
smell of a freshly stolen beam. And
nothing... And
something Worse
than nothing. A
wasps’ nest soaked with rain... The
truck has gone... The
beams have dressed... A
night of birds’ tongue. |
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A
pigeon fell down Hit
by a board The
elongated hand With
which we built the house So
that upon its boards There
should be room for everyone And
now There’s
none even in the attic For
the pigeon Let
alone anyone else. It
alighted upon the bedsheets A
gentle flight It
lay trying Its
claws clenched, its neck twisted, its wing over its
head, So
as not to see the rescuer
From
whose final joint It
took a few drops of water And
then started vomiting. I
shook my pyjamas Not
a breath of wind With
a forceful movement It
was as if a child flew out of it. The
pigeon was on the rubbish heap When
I saw it next Its
lean eye open Emperor Asa, the king of heights. |
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Pigeons
in a point pigeons
make time we
lie in the grass and
watch. Then
this grass actually
someone’s hair and
the sun a fake dares
not look in the eye. Pigeons
in a point a
choir of cats singing from the stomach hawks
alight on the head and
peck with all their might the
rain starts an
elephant turns up from somewhere and
whispers in
the voice of a shy divorcee: Fool,
they’re not in a point there
are bugs in your eyes. I rub my eyes and walk away. |
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It
fluttered Above
me I
drove it away Out
of fear. I
covered it with a sheet. When
I saw I
couldn’t harm it Yet
again... I
closed my eyes, tired. In
tiny hexagonal images I
saw each part of myself: Hitting Babbling
Small
curses Until
I turn into a crumb And
am thrown into the grass. They
say they saw me Sting
an angel Kill
a hornet. I
secrete the healing poison of silence. |
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The
apple-tree blossomed in
the clergyman’s yard. I
opened the fridge more often than
the window. I
imagined the
reddest apple as
your fruit. When
I saw your first boyfriend your
apples had been knocked down. My
framed space. One
apple one
fruit one
me looking
through the window. Apples
green and
ripe seen
through peeled breezers window
display pretty marriageable sour
and sweet more
hairy down below less
hairy down below. One
which
has been entered by a worm is
rotting sweet
to the tooth until
it dries and
becomes the seed of
a new tree and
a boy. |
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Help
me get rid of the shell And
not to carry the house on my back Not
to remain hollow Not
to be just an echo Of
someone who used to live there. |
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I
drink espresso with
milk, in
an old club that
they have changed to
make it look better. I,
not feeling better at all, drink
coffee, which
I don’t drink otherwise, in
a club that has never
meant anything
to me. |
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A
year ago my uncle Zoran
Rebić died it
seems to me that no
one loved him enough and
that he extinguished the fire with alcohol. For,
during his lifetime what
was enough was
not at all clear enough. 10.04.2005 |
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QUIETLY AND SECRETLY
If
we quietly pass
each other by there
was a moment when
I loved you infinitely and
now it’s quietly and secretly I
feel that moment and
nothing else nothing
else. If
I see you with a pram and
kids and grandchildren there
was a moment a
memory of someone else and
trembling and shivers down my spine and
now someone quietly and
secretly offends that
moment of
something else of
someone else. And
so quietly
and secretly we’re
getting closer to the grave you
used to hide… I
found your plainness lovely what
am I talking about? The
hairs on your legs, gummed-up eyes, snot and
the hatred towards me it
was lovely to me. Now,
quietly and secretly I
pass you by in
your prime without
noticing you. |
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DON QUIXOTE
Lucky
you, Don Quixote she’s
reading you now studying
for the World Lit 1 or 2 exam. She’s
reading you and
cares more about you than
about me Quixote,
you sod. She
reads you all night you
lucky sod she
disconnects her phone to
be alone with you and
I keep calling her to
look at Brana Petrović, but
no, she
says she’s preparing your exam: -
But you’ll never need any of that -
But some of it stays in your cerebellum Quixote,
you crazy sod, do
you know whose brain you’ll stay in? |
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THE YARD POEM
We
chased Živanka’s rooster around all
morning for
our hens are no sluts to
be trodden by just any rooster we
even used a broom but
he kept coming back who
says poultry love is
less bright than
us starfish or slugs. |
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WITH MYSELF
I
try to make peace with myself no
such luck, no
use, I
don’t go easy on myself I
don’t go easy, and
a voice inside me goes, soft
and sleazy, and
then bursts out don’t
go easy on yourself, don’t
go easy! |
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TO YOU,
I
haven’t signed a single poem the
night’s too dark if
I live to see the morning you’ll
remain alone unprepared for me and my nonsensicality. |
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THAT BRINGS LUCK
When
you stuff love in
a bag and
then throw, kick, hit the
bag and
it hurts, hurts, that
brings luck. When
you erase your
list of friends and
see that you are broke that
there’s no one left to squander you and
the bag is desolate and empty that
brings luck. When
you shake off the leash and
get rid of your mother and father, relatives,
well-wishers, aunts, and
go to sleep in
mud and silt seeking
fortune, that,
too, brings luck. When
you finally see that
you are alone under a cloud and
that everything around you is grey, lukewarm that
you sought love and
got the greatest hatred of all Baudelaire,
Crnjanski and Poe lived
that way you,
too, sought
fortune amidst junk it’s
anything but luck that
brings luck. |
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Thousands
of writers speak through my
pen thousands
of writers and letters I
would gladly line up and
shoot to
no avail since their fate is
written in books. |
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PRAYER POEM
She
had to go to her boyfriend О
Lord So
what, so what What
I’d gladly do to them... Forgive
me, Lord. She
says he called at an awkward moment I
say how true And
think of what I’d like to do to that son of a bitch... Forgive
me, Lord. And
she won’t have time for me Neither
tomorrow nor the day after, Who
know when she will Presumably
when she passes all the World Lit exams I
don’t know what I’ll do And
I change masks And
put on masks And
change city girls Thinking
of her If
you could... O
Lord, Forgive
me, Lord. |
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I
walk about the house thinking in
three hours she became the
centre of my world three
hours of conversation on
Tuesday, April 5th, 2005 around
5 p.m. on
a raft near “The Danube Flower”. |
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A LITTLE DIARY
I
have no strength I
am afraid of failure I
have no more friends you
have all that and
are younger to boot you
look at me from
some other world. |
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After
each conversation we have I
write 20 poems if
we talk on the phone twice that’s
a collection of poetry when
we don’t ring each other I
don’t write I
think a little practise
breathing a little lest
I should forget. |
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WHITE NIGHT
A
little something hurts but
it’s nothing. Prison
walls love
me, as
do whispers, autumn
watermelons, cemeteries,
slaves’
looks, mammals, bugs,
gallows, bayonet
tips. White
night loves
me, long
live ’45. A
goodnight rag that
I sucked as
a little boy, decomposed
into nothingness, has
survived. And
I don’t know how
to defend myself from
their love. |
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A CHANGE OF WORLDS
Once
Socrates spoiled
the young and
now they are spoiled by folk singers only
they are not troubadours,
minnesingers, dancers but ploughmen,
diggers, failed
hoe-wielders, doleful
plough-holders. Girls (who
have left the cooperative) only
they are not hetaerae to
whom we should dedicate verse metres to
them it means nothing nor
do stadiums or theatres they
are not prostitutes either for
prostitution is ideology love
has become passé the
rest is demagoguery. States yes,
there are small ones but
those are not polis-states or
democracy you
don’t drink hemlock after the death sentence you
drink poison first and
then they try you. |
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STUPID PHONES
I’m
sitting by
the phone she’ll
say and
then I’ll say and
what if she won’t
any more she’s
not answering it’s
rung three times already I’ll
have to leave. And
I do it again it
rings and rings and
rings one
more and
I give up, it
rings, just
once more and
yet again, stupid
phones, something’s
wrong with the switchboard. It’s
not easy Our
switchboard dates
from ’41. I’ll
call her on Wednesday. Digit
by digit, carefully no
mistakes this time I
call, she answers at
once. -
Honey, I called
and then 73 times more. -
Who do you wish to speak to? -
Irena Javorski. -
Sorry, wrong number. -
But that’s no reason for you
not to put me through.
Do you understand? -
You’re a fool,
do you know that? -
Sorry, I
keep thinking about her. Slam,
toot-toot, toot-toot, an
ambulance or a police car this
sound, that’s
the moo of
hungry grass in
the mouth of an ox. And
again, nothing, she
doesn’t answer the
cell phone nothing, and
then it switches off “UNAVAILABLE CALL
LATER”, a
little later, “CAL
LATER”. I
mean, if
she didn’t want to
answer she
wouldn’t say call later. All
day I
didn’t call her and
then another that
some kind of a record finally, on
the third day she
calls, flustered
at first, and then speaks
louder. -
I have a boyfriend ,
not one
but a hundred
and more. Oh,
she loves me, how
careful she is not to hurt me. -
And I love you, too!
You can’t hide from
happiness. -
Leave me be, you idiot. Another
switchboard glitch I’ll
call her again later.
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I MAY BE SLEEPING
You
are no more you
threw yourself under a train jumped
out of the window an
A-bomb fell that
was you splashed
with rain you
slashed your head off
someone else’s neck. I’m
as explosive as
wet dynamite but
it’s best no one should try me I
can still drive, fly, I
explode when
least expected I
wake the one of
whom no one knows where
he sleeps to
play poker I
lose I
put it about that I let him cheat that
makes him mad. I
sleep he
can’t sleep. |
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I
turned around cricked
my neck sprained
my leg you
wouldn’t even call. Broken
teeth bloody
dog-like nose are
not enough for me you
are not enough for me having
fallen to me like a pear while
I was looking for blackberries. I
expected either
a funeral or
to be called to your wedding as
it turned out while
I rushed you
took your time you
passed me by, life, like
everyone else just
like that. |
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FOR THE SOULTo Zoran Davinić
We
sit in
a sailing ship of a bar my
late friend and I my
friend and the late I we
order a round of drinks for
both our souls. |
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CAPITULATION
Today
I have capitulated against Everybody Friends,
enemies, Clever
ones, fools, Expectations,
Ancestors,
sons, Loves,
books, Today
I have capitulated Against
writing, Deadlines,
Time,
counting, Roving,
being bored, Sleeping,
Aspiring,
Waiting,
Lying,
Complaining,
To
myself, and to others of myself, Of
others, Of
these, of those, Today
I have capitulated Against Fears,
crying, Insecurity,
trembling, Size,
And
its diminution. Today
I have capitulated against Ignorance,
knowledge, Charges,
battles, Removals,
folding, Unfolding,
not folding, Against Parades,
masks, Cleaners,
academicians, Outlaws,
tailors, Eccentrics,
Cheese
pies, Cigarettes,
buffoons, Toilets,
pedestrians, And
queens. Today
I have capitulated against Instruments
at the Kolarac concert hall, Pickaxes,
spades, Aces,
trumpeters, Dissidents,
priests, dancers, Pančić’s
spruce, The
apricot-tree from which a swing swung, The
apricot-tree that is no more. Today
I have capitulated To
God and the rules of nature. I
take myself off the wall Like
a picture Leaving
a white trace Where my image was. |
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I
copied sort
of overheated sort
of placed a thought on
the block sighed and laughed. |
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